HE>1

                                    HE>1

John 3:30 says "He must become greater, I must become less. I'm realizing so much lately how much I NEED Jesus to be greater and I need to be less. I can't do anything on my own. I can't even breath without His say so! That brings so much comfort to me, to know that the creator of this world cares so much about me and wants to take care of all my needs, every single one of them. The more I realize my dependency on the Lord, the more He takes care of things, the less stressed I am when I know someone far greater than I is helping me along. He causes favor to be found in me. He works everything together for my good. He protects and guides me. His mighty hand is upon me...even when I have human moments and yell at His decisions or dispute His guidance. I'm reminded so lovingly that He's got this. He's in control when I stop trying to be. 

We can't control everything in our lives. At some point we have to step back and realize that the plan is greater than what we can see and the one who can see it has it all figured out. I've fought so hard lately with a certain issue...wondering what I was going to do, how I was going to fix it, where I was going to go with the circumstances and just last night I had a slow dance with my Lord. I allowed him to just wrap his gentle but mighty arms around me and I just wept. I remembered in that moment who I wanted in charge of my situation and it wasn't me anymore. In the silence of it all I felt so much peace and love and security, something that lately even my husband couldn't provide for me. I needed to feel the arms of Jesus holding me. His Word was breathing life into my lungs and filling my mind with so many promises and hope and joy. My heart was filled with the spirit of the living God...Something I haven't felt in a while. 

God never left, his spirit didn't move on to someone else...my mind moved on to something else. I allowed doubt and defeat, worry and anxiety to effect me in a way that hindered what the Lord was wanting to do. And in the midst of my human moment, when I finally decided to break my shell, God didn't remind me of my issues or past..he simply just allowed me to beg forgiveness, to surrender myself to a greater power, a greater being, to the greatest God. The only God that can influence my life and change the direction of the wind if he chooses. He just simply loved me....

Thank you Lord for your mercies in my life and for loving me through all of my human moments.

Jodi Shavon