I remember the first time I saw her face..she was the most beautiful being that I had ever seen. My heart grew and my name changed. I was no longer just someone's daughter, I was a mother to one. The very first time I heard her small voice let out the only sound she could it captivated my soul. I knew she was going to be the reason I was going to better myself and make better decisions. My whole world changed on October 16th, 1996 when Shaylee Marie Robinson was born. I knew she was going to be a wonderful baby because I had a great pregnancy and growing up she was the cutest, sweetest lil thang ever. She would say her prayers at night and at the end so proudly she would say "AMEM!". Sometimes I would watch her sleep and see her chest rise and fall and it would give me a peace that I've never known. I knew she was going to grow up and move mountains in her life. I knew she was going to continue to change me and she has. Today she is a 16 year old game changer in my life.
She shows me on a daily basis that she is strong, independent, and only getting prettier by the moment. She has her own values and beliefs and she demands respect on them. She doesn't agree for the sake of disagreement. She is strong willed and determined to make a difference in her life. She's everything I wasn't growing up.
On the flip side of her strength she has a heart that not too many people see. I would bet that I'm probably the only one who knows the sincere and sympathetic soul that exists inside her body. Some see her standoffish ways as being stuck up or antisocial but I see a young woman who guards her heart from hurt or pain that she can prevent. I see a baby girl that's grown up in some rocky circumstances and has come out refined and changed because of it. I see a person that's waiting for the right person to give her whole heart to. She has so much compassion for the needy, the different, the not-so-cool people. She loves hard and not many people see that. She's a quiet, stay-in-the-background kind of girl but her love shouts through her actions.
She loves to love me and I know that, she reminds me daily in the little things she says and does. The bond between us can never be broken....she wouldn't allow it and neither would I. Nobody knows my lil girl like I do and I'm ok with that until the day I give her away to the only other person who will experience the joy of Shaylee like I have. When that day comes, it will be a sad one, but I know whoever that person is they will be the luckiest person in the world because they just received one of my greatest accomplishments in life, my baby girl, my firstborn, my roo loo.
I love you Shaylee Marie.....more than all the stars in the sky. I know in the past you've probably felt I didn't love you at all and for that I could never apologize enough but know this in the days ahead..I will always be your biggest fan, your loudest dedicated cheerleader. I will see you through any trial no matter how big. I vow to pray you into an amazing woman with God's hand upon each word that comes from my heart. You will always have arms to run to when anything goes wrong and a home to cover your head.
I had to add this picture so that you could see the beauty in this child. Those blue eyes will always make me smile and bring me the same peace I had when I first laid eyes on her.....Plus I see her goofy personality in this too and I love that!
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